Ah, where do we begin? You’re nearly a year old now and I feel like a proud mama every time I log on to have a look at your dashboard. I mean, can you blame me? You are my brainchild, my outlet for when life gets a little crazy, my most loyal friend who will always be there for me when people let me down (well, until your web hosting plan needs renewing). You are the salt to my pepper, the sun in my sunshine, the pineapple to my fruit salad (that shit is good, you guys).
It’s strange to think that you’re only a few months old. This time last year, I was blogless. I was probably just getting along with my daily life – plodding to and from uni, teaching my students and watching far too many cat videos. Oh look, nothing has changed.
I don’t really know what I was thinking when I decided to have you – and I say this in the best possible way. At the time, I was riding that post-exam high, arrogantly thinking “Oh, what will I do with all this time I have now? I can’t POSSIBLY just sit around and do nothing all day, I’m just sooo in the swing of things from studying my ass off every day” etc etc. So, I applied for a few summer internships, and waited. Got rejected by a couple, applied for more, waited again. And hit repeat on that cycle for a while.
Then one day, I had the bright idea of starting you. I’m not quite sure what came over me, but I guess I woke up that morning and thought, “I’m going to start a blog today.” So I did.
Turns out, that was one of the best ideas I’ve ever had. If only the rest of my life decisions have been that good.
Initially, I couldn’t decide what I wanted to blog about. I thought of starting a poetry blog, or a music blog, or even a “Dear Diary” type blog. Eventually, I settled on beauty. Because that’s exactly what the internet needs – another beauty blog! I didn’t care. I was always that slightly awkward, nerdy girl at school who secretly loved makeup, but felt judged/too self conscious to experiment with it. This was my little space on the internet, I was going to unleash my love for all things beauty and make it my own. I was going to be more than a beauty blogger who just reviewed things. Being that girl who didn’t have many products to play with when she was growing up, let alone pricier ones, I wanted to be that blogger who showed people that it doesn’t matter what tools you have – it’s all about how you use them to make them work for you. I was pumped, ready to go with my free WordPress-hosted blog, customised hundreds of times before it went live.
I published my first post, not quite knowing what to expect. And a couple more. Soon, I began exploring my WordPress reader, and with this came the discovery of blogs that I still read to this day. Much to my amazement, I started to gain my first followers. I was shocked that anyone would willingly bring upon themselves regular updates of my beauty-driven brain vomit. I just couldn’t believe it.
Validation is a good feeling, okay? There, I said it.
I was so excited to write every post and publish it, so much so that I started posting every day for a while. Discovering this new community was incredibly exciting, and I got to write about something I loved but never really had the chance to talk about in real life. Everyone was so supportive of my work, and it was so nice to be surrounded by other bloggers who were equally passionate about their niches.
Soon, you started to open doors for me. People were discovering you and they liked you – I soon started writing for a fashion and beauty website. Along with this came a plethora of experiences I would never have dreamed of having. Things like receiving PR packages, going to a London Fashion Week launch party, getting an organic hair colour job and plenty more. It was like stepping into a whole new world.
Ironically, I also landed a summer internship just as all this was happening. Why is it that the things you wish for always happen when you’re least concerned about them and never the other way round?
Nevertheless, I was starting to want more. I decided to give you a major facelift, and with that came new everything. A new web hosting plan, a new blog name, a new theme, new social media channels, and most importantly – new niches. I wanted to branch out. I wanted you to reflect and share more of who I was. From the ridiculous thoughts that go through my head when I can’t sleep to the experiences I’ve had as a music teacher, I wanted to share it all with my readers through you.
Though let’s be honest, my silly observations on the train every morning are probably more appropriate for Twitter.
At first, it was a little daunting. Being a private person by nature, it was a big move sharing so much and being so open about it all – the highs and the lows in equal measure. But at the same time, you made it so delightfully easy. Through expanding my niches, I discovered and connected with so many new bloggers who could relate to something I’d written in one way or another. They laughed with me, and were there with open arms when I was having a bad day. Every comment on each post made me smile and gave me that warm feeling in my belly – the kind you have when you sit down at the end of the day with a mug of tea and a warm duvet tucked around you.
They still read and comment on my posts to this day. I honestly can’t get over it.
Nevertheless, the past few months have been quite a ride. I just want to say thank you for opening my eyes to a world I didn’t know could be so much fun. Thank you for letting me indulge in my love for writing/ranting with nothing to hold me back, and for being there for me through life’s events. Blog, you did good. Here’s to many more months and years of blog posts – rambly, philosophical and lipstick-stained in equal measure.
You go girl.
Disclaimer: All images used in this post were obtained from Pixabay and edited on Canva by J, exclusively for thenellybean.