How are you? No, really. How are you doing? I don’t ask you this question nearly often enough, and it’s been far too long since I did. I know that for a fact – sitting here writing this and looking at you, you are unrecognisable compared to who you were not so long ago. Trust me, I mean that in the best of ways.
I also know that the cynical you will narrow her eyes and give me that look, but I mean it.
It’s been quite a ride, hasn’t it? You’re so close to graduating university now, and this little blog of yours is nearly two years old. Time has flown, and you’re certainly a little older and wiser. I mean, you’re a serial list maker and you get excited about food shopping, specifically cheap pastries being further reduced en masse around 5.59 pm. Nevertheless, there are a few things I’ve wanted to tell you for a while now. They won’t come as much of a surprise, you and I both know that you know them well enough.
But sometimes – when things get a little frantic and the world whizzes by and there isn’t nearly enough time in one day – you just need a little reminder.
You’ve said so yourself many times and joke about it a lot – you’re an overworrier. Your brain is like a hamster on steroids, and that wheel never really stops turning. You’re ironically great at doing absolutely nothing when you want to, but your brain doesn’t really know how to do that. Every so often, hit that pause button. Take a breath and put a leash on that hamster. I say this because I know how important peace is to you. Not just in and with the world around you, but within yourself. Honestly, I don’t think you really know what that feels like, but that’s okay. Just allow yourself to take a breath every once in a while. Baby steps.
That brings me on to my next point. You’re a bit of a perfectionist
sometimes all the time. This extends to the people in your life, and you tend to hold people to the same standards that you do yourself. This isn’t always reasonable; people are their own people and always will be. Sometimes, you project your own insecurities when dealing with others and quite honestly, you’d give the world’s best cinema projector a run for its money. You have a kind heart and deep down, you want to believe the best you see in people. Don’t let those expectations of yours get in the way of that.
Remember – the things you dislike in others are the things you don’t see in yourself, and the things you admire about others are the things you love about yourself.
If I had to pick what I love most about you, it would probably be your spirit. When you struggle with something, you don’t run away from it. You push past that initial feeling of inadequacy and you knuckle down, especially when you’re at a disadvantage. You know how to lie low and learn by observing others, and eventually get just as good as (or better than) everyone else. Yes, you have moments of self doubt and they happen more often than you like to admit – and you know it. But remember that quote you love?
“She remembered who she was, and the game changed.”
It struck a chord with you for a reason. You’ve thought about getting it framed in your future home for a reason. Remember that reason. Put that hamster brain to bed once in a while, and have faith in your own abilities. You and I have certainly noticed that you do things best when you apply your unique flair to things, no matter what they are. Don’t forget that feeling.
We should do this more often. Keeping in touch is highly underrated. Until then, love your loved ones with an intensity that scares them, and stand up for yourself just as fiercely. Life is too short for any of this lukewarm anything business.
Your younger self.
Hope you enjoyed reading this one. It’s one of my more word vomity posts but I was feeling particularly reflective after scrolling through “inspirational quotes” on Pinterest (go figure) and decided to put fingers to keyboard. Would love to hear any thoughts or what you’d tell your future self if you could, or maybe even what you’d tell your younger self if you could time travel in a swanky DeLorean. Until next time – you go girl.
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